A "LITTLE" about Ms.Anna Rexxi.....
HEllo :) My name is Anna (typical choice of a fake name i know,lol) This is my first website, and must i say I AM SO PROUD!! I am 23 years old living in shittzville, new england. I am happily married and i have 3 perfect children. I have a perfect home, that is beautiful, a perfect PERFECT Hubby who i know would go to the edge of the earth for me. I am a dancer, i dance ballet, and i have for years.I am a certified horseback riding instructor(i havent worked since my hubby and i had our first daughter). And all my other top favorites hobbys i have are:playing guitar and singing,writing and riding my 1981 kawasaki KZ750. Thats right, it may not mix but i am a ballet dancer, and a motor head.LOL. And YES ladies, i do work on my own engines.I know my stuff...:) Anyway, as you can see, i do ALOT. And i am the type of girl that must perfect EVERYTHING i do, even as a mother and a wife. My life is put together, and i am happy. Offcourse there are little things here,there and everywhere.But for the most part, my life is PERFECT. The only thing that is not perfect is offcourse...my body.For some reason, without the security of knowing i am thin and i dont have to worry about my fat embarassing me somehow, i cannot seem to really enjoy anything in my life because i am CONSTANTLY worried about my appearance. My hubby is the type that will love me no matter what i look like. He always tells me i am beautiful. i dont know what it is. even though i should be more then comfortable with my husband of all people, i always cover up feelling ugly and ashamed. though realistically i dont believe it would happen, but a voice in my head tells me he will leave me for a more perfect and beautiful woman.So many things that my ana tendencies attach too, and they have been for the past 10years. my weight has always gone up and down. starve for a while, purge for a while, binge for a while....its always been a cycle. but right now, i live at my highest weigh of 170lbs, and i am 5'2. (it doesnt help that we planned our family really quickly.i had my first daughter,then gave birth to my son 1 year later, and my youngest daughter was born a year and 6 months afte him :))).i miss the feeling of hunger and control. i miss the emptiness that somehow helped fill everything else. i want to feel beautiful again for my family, myself, the world, everything. i hate the person i have become. i look like a "mom" and a dusty,chubby,ole house wife.And i have even taken a break from ballet because i feel disgusting wearing leotard. i want to feel attractive and sexy for my hubby. i want to be one of those moms that other moms will ask "how do you manage 3 babies in diapers, and keep yourself looking so good?" i want to make others jealous, and i want to feel good inside. i am tired of being the one always asking myself,"why cant ilook like her" or "i wish i could wear that", since WE ALL KNOW that all the best clothes they only make for skinny girls. So well, i am on my journey to success, and i hope whomever reading this will stick around and watch me shrink! MOTIVATION PLEASE!!!My weight loss goal right now is 55lbs. Also, if you have anything atall that you would like to add to my site please leave a comment or message me. I am very excited to be back on the train to beauty. SKINNY HERE I COME!!!!
my weight update as of may 3rd 2012 is 147lbs
my weight update as of may 3rd 2012 is 147lbs